quote of the day-
i want the world to stop. i want the world to be sad.

and i do. how can all these people i have never/will never met keep moving keep smiling, how can they laugh so loud [nothing is that funny] how can they not cry for this loss. fuck you sun for making pretty patterns in the clouds that look like a painting of gods and cherubs. i prayed to this God character ive heard of on the off chance i did believe, i prayed. but it is the world, it is the universe, this horrible mess of BALANCE that brings good and poorly placed bad to us all.

thank you stevie smith for reminding me we are all waiting to die- or maybe that's what ive just read in to this EVERYTHING.

i am a cliche on my knees in the rain wrenching out my hair screaming WHY NOT ME.