i feel like i should fuck this up-it's too intimate to cum so loudly
you're too
close.

your sad eyes go way back
from my little eyes of lying
and we wouldnt trust
the words
that leave our lips
for each other.

saying i love
i think of everyone
i have hurt
and loved
and wanted
and i think of destroying
and making it work.

---jade and i have said the i love you

i hope so---

hiding in
blanket times,
cheeks damp and
shaking to a sudden halt

i find my stomach overlaps
my thoughts
and it's nothing
but time
evolving,
body remolding.

i took away
nothing
and now im filling
the room to the brim
spilling water words
anywhere's a good start,
a fresh and fragile
and beating heart.

new love is frightening and little question marks up my spine, as the way we kiss is too new for the both of us. we are fresh and uncomplicated and i try to be honest, and over share but id rather her leave hating who i really am than stay around to lies. i am ice-free and happy and fat. i am trying not to echo past relationships and trying to make this one last. if i get hurt this time i think i wont come back.