-lies lies lies not quite lies little white lies delight-

when i pick up the phone at home i always hear the beep beep beep of the correctional centre and its never him. im not home when he phones and maybe its on purpose or maybe ill say it is so i can look like a tough cunt and i can be FINE and hes the one with the problem hes the one whos changing. tell them im scared he'll be mean to me/he'll confirm what he already knows i am heading down a different direction to where we originally planned. ill keep my one promise i can for him and that beautiful day will be clear like china and we can meet back there i swear and we can start over. we can get a chance to start. he will hate everything i stand for but for pities stake will stay with with me so we can say we tried and our friendship is stronger. he can lie to me staight and arrow in my weakened heart and say it doesnt change what we are.