all suited up
she saw me real as i get
i saw her
mine,
our proud eyes echoing
the other's gaze.
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i wish she would see herself as i do.

my princess jade :)

i wish i would show her how i see myself.

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rent is painful, wonderful, draining. i am too self involved to just skate through it- i can feel every tiring moment stabbing me in the stomach. maybe i am crying for myself.

and i keep thinking, i'll just buy a point or two for the after party. no one will know. i deserve it. after screaming for it, crying for it for a week non stop, i deserve some numb.

but i won't. if not for my sake, then for hers.