you look so pretty
in your skin
if you'd only wear it comfortably
let me wash
over you
and maybe
i will let you in.
BIG WORDS! said Gus the Firefly. "Say, I LIKE this game! I want to do it again. This word trick is fun. Come on. Make MORE words."
Friday, July 25, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
i told you we would marry next september which would be nice if the sun was out and the bees didnt sting and die and rot and lie and i need you to know i think i could love you properly if i understood myself. you jade are perfect and so far away from me.
i want to love you in that crazy way i knew i could if it didnt make me want to throw up and drown in my silence because i dont know how to connect any more only run away and i cant rely on myself any more than you can.
i cant take much more failure.
i cant take your kisses if i dont return them properly.
but i want to.
i want to.
i want to love you in that crazy way i knew i could if it didnt make me want to throw up and drown in my silence because i dont know how to connect any more only run away and i cant rely on myself any more than you can.
i cant take much more failure.
i cant take your kisses if i dont return them properly.
but i want to.
i want to.
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
all suited up
she saw me real as i get
i saw her
mine,
our proud eyes echoing
the other's gaze.
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i wish she would see herself as i do.
my princess jade :)
i wish i would show her how i see myself.
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rent is painful, wonderful, draining. i am too self involved to just skate through it- i can feel every tiring moment stabbing me in the stomach. maybe i am crying for myself.
and i keep thinking, i'll just buy a point or two for the after party. no one will know. i deserve it. after screaming for it, crying for it for a week non stop, i deserve some numb.
but i won't. if not for my sake, then for hers.
she saw me real as i get
i saw her
mine,
our proud eyes echoing
the other's gaze.
-------------------------
i wish she would see herself as i do.
my princess jade :)
i wish i would show her how i see myself.
------------------------
rent is painful, wonderful, draining. i am too self involved to just skate through it- i can feel every tiring moment stabbing me in the stomach. maybe i am crying for myself.
and i keep thinking, i'll just buy a point or two for the after party. no one will know. i deserve it. after screaming for it, crying for it for a week non stop, i deserve some numb.
but i won't. if not for my sake, then for hers.
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