i just spilt boiling water on my mouth.

it burns.

something to focus on, i am running.

i am sitting on the golden couch in my not-lounge-room-not-kitchen-not-anything designated couch area of my not-home-house.

i make pasta, i burn my mouth tasting the pasta. i spill boiling water on my mouth. my lips must be huge. i'm beautiful, i'm thin, i have massive lips with out the complication of surgery or injections.

i can't eat. i am running. BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOMmy heart is BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOMmy heart is BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOMmy heart is LOUD and FAST it is streets ahead. i am frozen.

[hunter was right, of course when he said]
i am afraid.