the size of a thumbnail,
foolish,
with one arm flailing
help me won't you

i built a spaceship

/glass, spit, twine/

it's a two-seater
but room for extension

/one dog, one cat, no ponies/

plenty of water
and cold air,
piled blankets to the ceiling
and
SPACE

i put glow-in-the-dark stars
on the glass roof

we can see the stars
and the stars
can see us

the stars can see

i over react
put newspaper under the glass
with sticky-tape
like
a sweat shop
in the centre of the city

you can't hear

i just spilt boiling water on my mouth.

it burns.

something to focus on, i am running.

i am sitting on the golden couch in my not-lounge-room-not-kitchen-not-anything designated couch area of my not-home-house.

i make pasta, i burn my mouth tasting the pasta. i spill boiling water on my mouth. my lips must be huge. i'm beautiful, i'm thin, i have massive lips with out the complication of surgery or injections.

i can't eat. i am running. BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOMmy heart is BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOMmy heart is BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOMmy heart is LOUD and FAST it is streets ahead. i am frozen.

[hunter was right, of course when he said]
i am afraid.