life lessons
experience
and every time
i wish it was over
i will learn.
until tears
shut my eyes closed
maybe i can teach you,
face bloodied
in the dirt
i can teach you
what it's like
to have everything
stolen.
with every last break
you will learn.

i am a doll. lying there with no say in the matter some people will never learn no. everyone thinks it was my fault, andrew blames me hates me. i know that i disgust him if everything in life is choices every step i followed led to me to that situation and i am that bloody pained mess that is too much for him when he and i both feel cheated. so every time i will deserve what i get and i will become what they want. i just want him to love me and now he wont because everyone else wanted a taste too. i just want him to hold me.